Wednesday, August 29, 2007
4:06 AM
i feel that i really need to wake C****** up
he's like so coward can
prank call teng li alr then when she found out and saw him,
he ran away
yesterday i passed a letter to him thru someone
when i wrote the letter,
i was quite agitated larh
don't know why
but i don't wish to have a friend like him
coward, likes to shout and can't speak properly, likes to demoralise himself
and he was mentioned in one of my posts
i don't why but i just got a very bad impression of him now
last time i used to think that he's a very very nice guy
im giving up on him soon
one good thing is i'm glad that d**** is changing
for my sake? maybe yes maybe no
but really happy to see him change
if we're really gonna go back to the past,
i shall not be so secretive alr
if ppl are gonna find out,
let them be and say whatever they want
i learnt that from the previous experience
i don't give a damn if they're gonna say i like who or whether i have bf
cos i'll just shut up:)
i wanna O2 alr,
so bye
(emo shit)
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
4:31 AM
today before band,
after i ate my lunch,
i finally spoke to joseph after months
i told him to stop mixing with mow rong, wei chong etc.
he said that he longer talks to them,
hope he really told me the truth
it's quite saddening to see your good friends all go to the wrong side
they're actually very nice guys,
but all thanks to mow rong and gang that they changed for the worst
it was boon kiat, then joseph, then jin you.
next one ist joshua ling?
i think that day when he will follow edwyn is drawing near
sad eh?
never fails to make me sad whenever i think of this
but sorry if i had been very mean to you guys,
but i just wanna let you know that i really don't wish to see you all turn bad
it's that bk
i always nag him to break away from mow rong and gang and edwyn's gang,
although he kept on saying yes he will,
but i doubt so
today i saw him talking to them and i talked to and nagged at him
he really got influenced very badly
he realised that too,
but i think it's difficult for him to stray away from them
afterall they're still 'brothers', no?
'brothers' stick to each other until problems come when the so-called 'brothers' will pang seh him
he'd better wake up before that really happens.
like i said they're super nice guys
so i hope to change or influence like how they were in sec one,
although im not good either,
the toot sec one guys
wish me good luck,
cos i have to influence 3 guys
bye,
retarded girl
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Friday, August 24, 2007
5:31 AM
jy just thought that i dao him unreasonably
just hope he changes
if he doesn't,
then i shall let him rot by himself
recently i searched 'violin' and found a pic and it's like so nice
i realised that i like black and white pictures
they are rather nice though colourless, no?
im gonna find more of these photos
g2g, cos i have lesson a while later,
until 10
gonna sleep during lesson
but that's impossible
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Monday, August 20, 2007
5:58 AM
today i dao-ed jy very badly
thanks to his irritating nature
and i also wanna stop the rumours
he's like freaking irritating can
a sucker, a big one
he's like so not interested in lessons,
then why don't he just get out of the class instead of making a fool of himself and distrupting lessons?
that's just not cool or cute of him
he likes to act cool and cute
also likes to talk about getting the chio bus hp no,
like they will give him
he likes to say himself handsome
merlin's beard(from harry potter which means oh my god)
can God please make him wake up?
he('s):
1. irritating
2. sickening
3. likes to act cool(gross!)
4. acts like a clown in class and always distrupting lessons
5. flirtatious (24/7)
6. likes to attract attention and denies it
7. tries to act beng, but he always fail doing that
8. a famous sucker
9. all the negative stuff can describe him
agree?
shall end here and continue to dao him tmr.
and he will go like "eh. what i do? why you dao me?"
he and his acting innocent
to those who still believes in their belief that i like jy,
smack yourself and wake up too
or take a stapler to bind your lips together or whichever way which can shut you up
bye suckers
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Saturday, August 18, 2007
6:10 AM
just realised that i didn't blog for 9 days
actually it's not very long
some people damn fuck larh
for like don't know how many times i tell them i don't like jy,
they don't believe
just now someone was talking to me then suddenly asked me whether i like jy and i said "NO"
then he said that he thinks i really like him then say first time hear ppl say i like someone
but the fact is
I DON'T LIKE JY!!!
since nobody wants to believe me,
then why should they come and ask me alr then choose to believe the rumours?
like what's their fucking problem larh
they have nothing better to do than to spread rumours, gossip and say who likes who
if you also think that i like jy, then fuck off
don't talk to me
then some ppl say i like felix
come on larh fuckers
i like neither one can
stop being like some fucking gossipers and keep on saying
okay, whoever is gonna ask me whether i like jy or felix,
i will ignore
cos that's what they want me to do
bye fuckers
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, August 09, 2007
2:07 AM
yesterday recieved sms from that guy
(not the one i talked about in my previous post and i shall name him c)
he'll tell me hints for exams,
then like show alot of concern for me
he's also always there whenever im feel damn lousy
so as time passes,
i would talk to him if im sad
and he would do the same
i told him that i treated him as a friend and i like someone else
he's someone with very low self-esteem,
no self confidence and thinks that he's irritating becos of what ppl say
don't know starting from when,
he will sms me say he will give up on me and i should be happy
then say if he say anything wrong, then sry becos he's stupid and knows nth
after that he'll add on say he's just an irritating person
then yesterday that was what i recieved from him again
and it's like the 4th time?
everytime he says this(everytime the same thing),
i'll say i didn't even say him irritating and i never even say i'm happy if he give up
it's like putting words into my mouth and i tell you,
i hate that larh
do you expect me to be like happy after looking at this msg?
when i replied him and he replied me,
he'll say that he hope i won't be angry,
hope this won't affect my mood and hope we still can be friends
i don't wanna have this kinda friend
he's changed, i can tell
he was never like that
but it's up to him, if he wanna give up on himself,
then i don't care about him and let him continue with his self-destruction
after that i told carissa i was damn pissed off and the f words all came out
then she was like relaxx
i felt much better after relieving the fishy words(f words)
then thank God that he(the previous post one and i'll name him d) sms-ed me
then like suddenly all the anger gone
but one thing is everytime we sms each other,
confirm not more then 10 sms
if only we can chat like last time,
when we could just talk on the phone for hours
but yeah, my phone bill shooted up larh
then for today, the performance was still okay
wah lau, i think im sad larh
cos mr.sim seems very serious about ending contract with our sch
and looking for another conductor for us
God, pls make him stay and continue to be our conductor
gracia told me say she's also helping him look out for another conductor
i think that mr.sim is superb larh
but if he really wanna leave,
then we can't do anything
i think i go and o2 to erase my sadness away
bye and God bless
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
4:33 AM
i forgot to add in
for those who knows my blog,
don't tell other ppl!
shhh arh.
treat as i don't have one.
rmb,
don't spread!
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
3:56 AM
today's national day celebration was rather okay
but....
band was fun today! :DD
today we put more efforts and passion in our playings,
thus the pieces sound so much better than yesterday
disco mix 1 was cool, okiyawarakani and others are so much better
actually what i wanna say is don't overdo smthg,
cos it'll piss ppl off
when somebody's tells you to stop it,
then just stop
don't wait till like i burst then you understand
(but today i haven't burst,
i merely showed unhappiness in what you did)
don't take things for granted that maybe i'm your close friend or what,
then you just take it that whatever you do, we won't mind
difficult to explain
but just don't treat everything like yours,
when it's not,
and then do things your way
being overly-friendly can be like irritating also,
so don't overdo anything anymore
pufftt
change subject
tmr band's gonna perform at tamp central park for national day
still must get up super early
hope we can perform well tmr then the audience will say like what pei lin said
"shss band should get gold or gwh instead of silver"
possible? maybe
but today teng li, felix, carissa and me did 'score-reading'
haha, 'score-reading' indeed
its more like score-singing
we sang the songs according to our own parts,
when we happen to be from diff sections
it was fun
but i lost a bit of voice after that
overall, today was okay
nothing to post
bye
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
6:39 AM
hello
i think im getting emotional now
and confuse too
ever since the day i regretted doing that,
i've been thinking about him
so i sort of brought it upon myself
but never mind
its the past
then im like so happy that he told me what i thought was never possible
he needs to change,
and i need to change too
but i think that even if we are to start again,
things aren't going to be like the past
he's sort of the perfect guy,
but he changed and we had a war
now its the post-war
i needa change too, like him
all i want is to recieve an sms from him at least everyday, but yeah,
thats not possible
right now im still thinking about him
me and him drifted apart cos there's no trust
the thing is i just can't trust him,
but i forgot what makes me think that way
then after like a few months, i healed
im super confuse, don't wanna hurt my own feelings again
i just can't forget about him, and the past
but just have to let time do the decision
enough about that
tmr's national day celebration, and guess what?
there's band tmr.
*SHUCKS*
im getting sian of band,
but still, i love band. that won't change
tmr i have 3 hrs of stoning time,
but maybe going out for lunch and slack my time away
but i feel like studying
im trying to be a guai kia now
i study everyday can, but still nothing gets into my brain
cos like 85% of what i read, i just glance over,
made no effort in memorising or think about what it really means
thats just me
studying = stoning/not studying
oh yeah, and miss goh,
GET WELL SOON
what happened seriously made me don't feel like thinking about it
*crack* thats what happened to her bone
eeeeeewwwww(llllllllllll)
don't know what to post alr,
bye
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Friday, August 03, 2007
11:43 PM
yesterday somebody told me say alot of ppl think that i like jy
please grow up for those who spread this
immature morons or fucking assholes
maybe becos you see us often talking to each other
or maybe anything to make you think this way
But I DON'T LIKE JY!
get it?
or perhaps you're too retarded to get it
stop acting like gossipy aunties and spread this kinda things
i know who you are
ppl just wanna make me burst
then one day i'll just like don't care about everything
stop giving me all these problems
i alr have lots of problems
i may seem to be happy for 24 hours
but im telling you now
im not!
i don't know what my mother really wants
she's like everyday stressing me
she might have pleasure in scolding me for everything,
but im always the one crying in one corner after all the scoldings
im just like one rubbish to her
im nothing. one rubbish.
im useless, like what she said
a good-for-nothing
i feel like crying now
you all just wanna see me die
then you are satisfied
enough is enough
abel ang
if you think you're not idiotic, irritating, bastard or motherfucking enough
then continue spreading
i was listening to 大男人小女孩 then this song makes me really emo
and now 殺手, then this song makes me wanna give up everything on this world...Labels: immature thinkings
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
Thursday, August 02, 2007
4:52 AM
Today i made avryl angry cos i whistled during chapel
after a while, she's okay again
avryl and i went to jy's hse after he got a 'whoosh' on his butt
wanted to help cheer him up if he's gonna be emo after that stroke
but in the end im pissed off with avryl
becos of that two SUCKERS
i thought i could finally play table tennis with jy after so long,
but he asked corn along
i knew it!
if corn's there, i won't be able to play for one hour
it's always like that
they can play anytime they like cos they're like super duper free
but i can only play like once after ages
i went home after that and left avryl there with the two suckers
never mind, forget it
oh and,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEO!
someone's getting you a present:DD
and there's this girl,
who's like uber idiotic, bitchy and not to say,
SHORT
i guess alot of people know who's she
i don't know how avryl came up with the nickname 'president' for her
but i just join in the fun and called her president too
she pissed me off before,
and i wanted to ka jiao her
she asked me to shut up after i called her that
but sadly,
she's gonna get it
show me attitude and i'll show you what's the real attitude
"watch out arh SHORTY!"
tmr there's art lesson,
so that means my class' gonna whistle like mad
i think all our subject teachers are super annoyed with our constant whistling,
kissing sounds and bird sounds.
my class just became a bird park
got to study nowLabels: SUCKERS
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
