Thursday, August 09, 2007
2:07 AM
yesterday recieved sms from that guy
(not the one i talked about in my previous post and i shall name him c)
he'll tell me hints for exams,
then like show alot of concern for me
he's also always there whenever im feel damn lousy
so as time passes,
i would talk to him if im sad
and he would do the same
i told him that i treated him as a friend and i like someone else
he's someone with very low self-esteem,
no self confidence and thinks that he's irritating becos of what ppl say
don't know starting from when,
he will sms me say he will give up on me and i should be happy
then say if he say anything wrong, then sry becos he's stupid and knows nth
after that he'll add on say he's just an irritating person
then yesterday that was what i recieved from him again
and it's like the 4th time?
everytime he says this(everytime the same thing),
i'll say i didn't even say him irritating and i never even say i'm happy if he give up
it's like putting words into my mouth and i tell you,
i hate that larh
do you expect me to be like happy after looking at this msg?
when i replied him and he replied me,
he'll say that he hope i won't be angry,
hope this won't affect my mood and hope we still can be friends
i don't wanna have this kinda friend
he's changed, i can tell
he was never like that
but it's up to him, if he wanna give up on himself,
then i don't care about him and let him continue with his self-destruction
after that i told carissa i was damn pissed off and the f words all came out
then she was like relaxx
i felt much better after relieving the fishy words(f words)
then thank God that he(the previous post one and i'll name him d) sms-ed me
then like suddenly all the anger gone
but one thing is everytime we sms each other,
confirm not more then 10 sms
if only we can chat like last time,
when we could just talk on the phone for hours
but yeah, my phone bill shooted up larh
then for today, the performance was still okay
wah lau, i think im sad larh
cos mr.sim seems very serious about ending contract with our sch
and looking for another conductor for us
God, pls make him stay and continue to be our conductor
gracia told me say she's also helping him look out for another conductor
i think that mr.sim is superb larh
but if he really wanna leave,
then we can't do anything
i think i go and o2 to erase my sadness away
bye and God bless
Ysome hearts are meant to be broken;;
